untitled

i realized this morning
that you were the first person who loved me
for me
you were
the only shred of light
of hope
i ever found in humanity
then you left
i can't do anything right
as per usual
i can't love you right
i can't make you stay
i can't make you leave
i can't make you do anything
and worst of all
i can't make me stop trying
goddamn it all
UPDATE
everytime i say it's the end
i'm not even close
i can't stand to be around you
i can't stand to leave you
this is definitely
one of the shittiest situations ever
all i do is
starve me
deprive me
miss me
worst of all
is missing you
why can't we both
just get the fuck out of my head?