i can only hope for new beginnings

i can't help but wish
to look at this
and reminisce
of a simpler day
a time cut short
where we could both pretend we were happy
and get lost in each other
and what is this anyway?
i know for sure that it isn't what it used to be
there never used to be a need for
careful deliberation
we never hurt each other
but it seems like that's all we ever do now
grasp at straws and hang on
for this
always for this.